Up until now, I didn't know what it is to eat alone at a restaurant. It's not common in my country for people to eat alone.
I was always curious about how this experience would turn out. I was sure it would feel awkward, but I had to do it. Just to prove to myself that I was brave and independent. That I could do anything I wanted to, even if it entailed being uncomfortable and facing my fears.
Would people would stare at me? Would they think I am a loner? Where do I look while eating? Can I stare at my phone and pretend to text people? Can I put my headphones on and listen to music? Would that make this whole experience much less awkward? What if I bump into someone I know? Would they think I am a friendless sad soul? Fears, I tell you!
I remember there was a time when I was in college, when I wouldn't even go to the supermarket or any store by myself for the fear that people would think I am a loner. I attempted that once, when I had no choice and I rushed whatever work I had to do and came back within an hour. Walking alone on the streets felt so wrong, so uncomfortable. Now looking back, I can't comprehend why I would ever feel that way!
After I started working and living by myself, I've done dozens and dozens of things by myself.
And today I went a step further. I went to KFC and had lunch alone!
It wasn't anything like I had imagined it to be. Maybe because I wasn't thinking about it. I was just doing my work, realized I was hungry and it was time for lunch. I stepped inside KFC all by my happy self, ordered what I wanted and ate without a care in the world. There were no stares from strangers. No awkwardness. Nothing at all.
Sometimes I am so proud of myself. If only I would be this proud all the time. A goal worth pursuing I am sure!
P.S. I haven't embraced the selfie trend, so no picture of me to go along!